Taking a look back.

Little Man's birthday is on Monday. I can't believe he is going to be 4! I know every year on any of my kids birthday's I say that. It's true though. The time seems to be flying by faster and faster. I really hate it!

I am trying to get some pictures together for his VIP poster for preschool. Well guess what? I don't have any. I had them all on my laptop and an external hard drive that died. We backed up what we could and I THOUGHT I had them. For some reason I can't find them. I have two external hard drives sitting here WITH NOTHING ON THEM! I am almost to tears. This would be the 3rrd time they would be lost if they really are, gasp, lost for good. :(

So I am stuck looking back on my blog in hopes I can copy some pictures off it to print some for the poster. I started way back to my posts in 2007 when little man was born. I started reading the posts from the days before he was born. Then "IT" happened. I got all teary eyed thinking of how much my kids have grown up. Looking at the pictures is supposed to make me happy isn't it?

I want to be happy, I do. I am proud of my kids. They are good kids. It's just when I look at them I feel an extreme amount of guilt. I see pictures of Little Dude and remember things that have happened when he was so little and think "Oh I expected so much of him. He was just so little. How could I have done that?" I see pictures of the Princess and can't help but think she was so carefree. Diabetes didn't plague her life back then. Pictures of Little Man make me feel sad to think that maybe I didn't cherish every moment long enough. I almost don't remember...

Thinking about all this is hard enough and now thinking that I don't have copies of these super cute pictures of my kids makes me heart hurt. REALLY bad. If I can barely remember now, how will I ever remember without the pictures.

With that said. I am going to copy and repost some of these pictures that have brought tears to my eyes today. I will post a link to the original post so you can head back into time with me.

~Little Princess and one of my favorite moments with her. Watching her play dress up. Check out the original post for more adorable pictures

~Little Man and his blessing pictures. He was so little and handsome. Here is the full post.

~Little Dude learned to ride his bike so fast. I knew this was going to be something that he loved to do. Original post
~Little Man has always had the best smile. One day I just wanted to take pictures of him, he had just turned 6 months old. I can't help but smile when I see this face. Who knew diabetes was going to effect his life too. :(

This photo shoot for our Christmas cards was a very difficult one. I remember being so frustrated. Looking back I should not have been so hard on them. I went home thinking I didn't get a single good picture. Well I was wrong THESE pictures turned out to be one of my favorite ones we have.

~Little Dude has always been such a big helper from such a young age. This is him helping remodel the bathroom at the age of 4.

I could do this all day long, but I guess you will have to just check things out on your own. I do want to post one more.

~This is an experience with Little Dude that I think about often. He and I were having a rough day. I am forever grateful for my inspiration to handle things in a little different way. Check out the story.

An Update!! For REALS!! :)

Hey there long lost blogging land!

No excuses this time, just out of habit. I think about posting all the time. BUT spare time is hard to come by these days. Anyway, I just thought I would post a quick update. There are so many things that are going on so I might be a bit vague on my update just so I don't post a SUPER long post that will bore you to death. SO if you want more info JUST ASK! :)

To start:

My Hubby~ He has one more month of the Police Academy!! YAY! He has passed all his qualifying shoots and is doing an awesome job on everything else. HE LOVES IT! I should really post a picture of him in his uniform cuz he looks super hot! He has a job interview with South Salt Lake PD next week and is filling out the back ground check for Utah Highway Patrol. Now if he gets the job with UHP he could be stationed ANYWHERE in Utah. Yes that even means the smallest of smallest towns in Southern Utah. So we will see what happens, but the chance of him getting a job there is better than we first thought...we will see.

Me~ Well, I am just busy trying to keep up with life. Laundry, cleaning, cooking, homework, diabetes and such. Wendy and I have some little "works in progress" that I have been working on too. It's been fun! I also have been working with the young women in my ward. They keep me busy, but boy do I love it! I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of my nephew Max who will hopefully be here really soon! After he is born I get to babysit him a few days a week...I can't wait!

Little Dude~ He had a birthday! He is now 8! I can't believe it! He had a fun party with friends at the local pool and we celebrated with family too! He was baptised on March 5th too! I am so proud of him for making that choice! What a good young man he is...well mostly. We do have a few problems that we are trying to work out. Like how bad he hates diabetes, and flat out refuses to talk about/help with/listen to anything related....oh this is a big issue. He LOVES cub scouts and earned his bobcat award the other day. He and daddy have been working on their pine wood derby cars too. OH THE FUN!

Little Princess~ She is as silly as ever. She just chopped off like 8 inches of her hair. She looks really cute! We are trying to get a CGM for her but the insurance is being a pain...funny, isn't that the story of my life? Her A1C dropped this last time from 8.1 to 7.1 (yay!) and is doing a good job learning to take care of a few things herself. I can't believe that at the age of 6 she could learn so much about diabetes. Her school is planning a fundraiser for the JDRF that we are in charge of. This should be really cool to get her involved, but could really back fire since her "I hate diabetes" brother goes to the same school.

Little Man~ It's always the same story with him. He gets into everything. I spend probably about 85% of my day talking food with this kid. He wakes up STARVING. I give breakfast and insulin and not 15 minutes later he is asking me what is for snack. I tell him to wait...he usually sneaks into something...then we give more insulin and a snack and 10 minutes later he wants lunch. It goes like this all day until dinner time and he WON'T EAT A THING. What a stinker. He is a funny kid though and is growing up. His 4th birthday is on Monday. I can't believe it! His A1C is doing great, but slowly climbing. up to 6.7 now. This is the highest he has ever been. He still hates site changes and getting his fingers poked but I don't blame him. It sucks. I can't believe he has been pumping for almost a year!

So that is where we are. Nothing too fab to report, but hey I had to post something. Hopefully I will update with pictures next time!