Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Oh boy!

I know that it isn't Monday yet, but I have done a crappy job at my goals already. I feel really bad about it. I want so bad to accomplish these things and I feel that I am falling off the wagon only after a few days.

I tried to take my kids pictures tonight for our Christmas card and I really think that all of Gardner Village now knows how impatient I am. My poor kids tried at points, but they really weren't being very good. I tried to be patient, I really did. But then we were there longer than 20 minutes and I think with every step I lost it even more. I was determined though. I had purchased new clothes and hats for them to wear. I had a vision and they looked so cute! Well, as any good photographer knows that the more you push a kid the less willing they are. (Maybe this is why I feel that I am not so good.) My vision never happened. I got some ok poses in just ok lighting and left with a crappy attitude.

The goal of keeping the house clean, getting the kids to bed on time and eating better has been going a little better, but no one would know it. My house is still a mess. I have tried to keep it clean but I just can't keep on it. The kids fell asleep before dinner so they are passed out on the couch. The will wake up in an hour or so and be hyper I just know it. Then there is eating better, well I can say that I have MADE every meal. I even made something in the crock pot today. I guess that is a big step.

A little depressing, I know. I am open for suggestions, and thoughts. I know I need to give my self some credit, but I hate the feeling of failing just as I am getting started.

6 comments:

Robin and Stephenie said...

K don't be hard on yourself you have THREE kids! I have one and the house is always a mess... really it is. With the dinner thing I do good a week or so then I get sick of cooking and we eat out, but when I do well at making dinner I make a menu and that is what we have. We spend less money at the store and have more food at home. oh yeah I do have msn I just haven't downloaded it on my new computer. hang in there Your doing fine.

Kim said...

Ya day one always sucks. It takes like 30 something days to create a habit...hang in there, you are doing great.

RaeLynn said...

Hi. I don't even know you--but I recently posted on my own blog about how sick I am of people who are so UNreal in their blogs, painting their lives to be perfect in every way. I just wanted to say, that I REALLY commend you to allowing yourself to be vulnerable, and that it's refreshing to see someone who isn't too concerned with what other people think of them! :) I had a super crappy day today too. But--every day is a fresh start. Thankfully!

stephanie said...

WOW! that is alot of goals to set for one person! no offense but you are setting yourself up for failure on at least one of those goals! I would try to create one at a time, like kim says it takes a long time to create a good habit or at least 28 days to break a bad one! for me though if I am up and ready before the kids then I am set for the day, and the whole temper thing for cryin out loud you have 3 little babies! I have 4 and I say at the beginning of the day and in each of my prayers to help me be patient but as soon as the kids are up and start talking I snap out of that dumb idea:) anyway I think you are awesome that you are aware of what you want to change and as long as you are creating fun memorys with your family they will not remember the dirty house:):):):)ps. if you come over to my house right now you will see a house where 4 kids under the age of 5 actually live in!!!

alisonwonderland said...

just one day at a time, my friend!

Holly said...

Seriously - be a little easier on yourself. Most people with three kids should probably just keep the goals simple like "I will feed and clothe all three before noon". And as for trying to photograph your own kids...you'ze crazy leddy! I can't do it, no one I know can do it with any measure of self-confidence or satisfaction. It's an exercise in frustration. Save posed pictures for when you have a buddy to help or do the shooting while you help.