I know that it isn't Monday yet, but I have done a crappy job at my goals already. I feel really bad about it. I want so bad to accomplish these things and I feel that I am falling off the wagon only after a few days.
I tried to take my kids pictures tonight for our Christmas card and I really think that all of Gardner Village now knows how impatient I am. My poor kids tried at points, but they really weren't being very good. I tried to be patient, I really did. But then we were there longer than 20 minutes and I think with every step I lost it even more. I was determined though. I had purchased new clothes and hats for them to wear. I had a vision and they looked so cute! Well, as any good photographer knows that the more you push a kid the less willing they are. (Maybe this is why I feel that I am not so good.) My vision never happened. I got some ok poses in just ok lighting and left with a crappy attitude.
The goal of keeping the house clean, getting the kids to bed on time and eating better has been going a little better, but no one would know it. My house is still a mess. I have tried to keep it clean but I just can't keep on it. The kids fell asleep before dinner so they are passed out on the couch. The will wake up in an hour or so and be hyper I just know it. Then there is eating better, well I can say that I have MADE every meal. I even made something in the crock pot today. I guess that is a big step.
A little depressing, I know. I am open for suggestions, and thoughts. I know I need to give my self some credit, but I hate the feeling of failing just as I am getting started.