Sunday, November 29, 2009

As if you really wanted to know this about me.

My computer threatened to die on me the other day. Ok actually it really is on it's way out. (I need to hurry and back everything up while I can) But I didn't have a chance to read anyone's blogs until today. I read that Chasiti tagged me to do this. So now it is my turn for me to tell you a bunch of useless crap about me! Ha Ha!

1. Do you like bleu cheese? No way! Can't stand even the thought. I am really picky about my food and anything that has to do with mold.

2. Have you ever smoked? No. Gross.

3. Do you own a gun? Hubby has one. He wishes he had more.

4. Favorite type of Food? This is easy, by far Mexican...or lettuce wraps from Pei Wei. YUMMY!

5. Favorite type of music? I love music and will pretty much listen to anything.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? I think they are fine. Love to give them to the kids for a low carb lunch.

7. Favorite Christmas movie? Christmas Vacation.

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water.

9. Can you do push ups? Not many, but some.

10. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? My wedding ring.

11. Favorite hobby? Hummm....blogging, photography, sleeping...oh that isn't a hobby? Ok fine. There are some that I used to do that I totally miss like Mtn. Biking, snowboarding, and playing the guitar.

12. Do you have A. D. D.? Quite the opposite actually. I think that I am a little too laid back. I wish that I could be a little more ADD about some things then maybe they will get done.

13. Do you wear glasses/contacts? Yea, but only when I have to. I hate wearing them. It seems as though I would rather not see then put contacts in or wear my glasses.

14. Middle name? I am actually pretty proud of my middle name....Rae.

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: 1) that cologne that my 2 year old got into smells like poop when that is all that you can smell. 2) can't wait for our Sunday night Holiday Movie night. 3) I have the best friends and family a girl could ever ask for.....can I add a 4th? This is my thing so I am adding it....4)I really want another piece of pie my hubby made. It is SO YUMMY!

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink: Dr. Pepper, Crystal Light, water

17. Current worry? Seriously? Do ANY of you have the time for me to list my current worries? If anyone has read my blog in the past 2 years you will know my current worries....or even read it in the last 2 weeks for that matter. I am not listing them....I will totally sound pathetic.

18. Current hate right now? The smell of that NASTY cologne. Why does he have to get into everything? Silly boy.

19. Favorite place to be? Doing anything with my hubby and kids.

20. How did you bring in the new year? Watching movies and eating yummy treats at our house. I loved having my sister in law here from Texas. I hope she can be here again this year!

21. Someplace you’d like to go? Anywhere JetBlue flys to. I want to be able to say I have used my benefits sometime.

22. Name three people who will complete this. I have been away from the blogging world for a few too many days and I have no idea who hasn't done it. I guess if you are one of them, consider yourself tagged. :)

23. Do you own slippers? Do I own slippers? What a funny question actually. Last year when my princess was diagnosed my friend Cari took me shopping. She bought me a cute pair of slippers and said that life is better when you have a cute pair of slippers. A few weeks ago when my little Man was in the hospital she brought me another pair. Now I have two cute pairs to remind me how sweet life is....when you have a pair of slippers.

24. What color shirt are you wearing? Green and white

25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? No. I hate getting in them slipping right back out.

26. Can you whistle? Yes, my princess is the master at it. She will whistle non stop!

27. Where are you now? Home, watching my hubby play Pain on the PlayStation.

28. Would you be a pirate? What a strange question, but I think I would get sea sick.

29. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don't sing much in the shower, I do math....Long story.

30. Favorite Girl’s Name? What we named Little Princess.

31. Favorite boy’s name? What we named Little Dude and Little what if I don't announce their names on my blog.

32. What is in your pocket right now? Don't have pockets in jammies.

33. Last thing that made you laugh? HA HA HA HA HA HA HA

34. What vehicle do you drive? Chrysler 300 or my Jeep Grand Cherokee

35. Worst injury you’ve ever had? Let's see, I knocked out all 4 of my front teeth when I was really little. It took them almost 5 years to come back in. Or there was the time that I dropped the curling iron in my eye and burned the surface of my eye. Or maybe its the fact that I have broken my right arm 3 times....It's gotta be one of those. :)

36. Do you love where you live? Yes, I love it! I don't ever want to move.

37. How many TVs do you have in your house? 3 One in the family room, one in my bedroom then a little tiny one downstairs where we work out.

38. How many computers do you have in your house? 4. My lap top, my hubby's lap top, one in our office, then my work computer.

39. If you changed your job, what would it be? When my kids are all grown up I want to go to school to be a CNA or a Radiology tech.

40. If you were granted three wishes, what would they be? 1) a cure for diabetes so my kids wouldn't have to suffer. 2) that we could never worry about finances again 3) That we could travel more as a family.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

The Not So Good Infusion Sets

Interesting picture I know! But I have to post it.

This is to follow up with the "new" infusion sites we have to use. The first time we used it the site got a little infected and we had to change it after 2 days. The second time we used it this is what happened. Do you see the big bruise where the needle sits? I don't even need to explain the blood.

This stinks!

I plan on using these pictures to show the insurance if I have to. I just don't think I should make her be in pain just because the insurance says we have to use these.

Friday, November 20, 2009

The Stay

You wouldn't think that I would go to the hospital without my camera would you?

It amazes me that in every picture Little Man has a smile...or a silly face. He was trying SO hard to be brave. He still hates getting pokes and will kindly say "Don't poke me daddy!" Or when it comes time to get his insulin he runs across the room and just cries. I try to comfort him after every poke to make sure he still knows that I love him. It isn't easy on either of us. I don't like to give them just as much if not more than he doesn't like getting them. Oh how I wish I could take this away from my children.

Ok so before I get more emotional here are a few pictures and stories from the hospital stay.

Daddy got to spend most of his time at the hospital with him. I hated not being there all the time, but I couldn't ask for anyone better to be with him. I am so thankful for my hubby and all that he does for us! He truly is an amazing man. Little Man was lucky to have him by his side, and lucky to have him in our lives in general.

That cute little teddy bear he is holding was given to him by his little "girl friend" Jessie. So what if Jessie is 13 years old, he LOVES Jessie! He was super happy to see her! We were all happy to see her and her mom and dad! Even if it did take Jessie lying about her age to get into the hospital! (Because of H1N1 all children under 14 are not allowed into the hospital.) I can't believe we were so stressed on minute then the next laughing so hard my sides hurt! It was great medicine for the soul!

Our good friend Matt came by too. It was so awesome of him to come! He even brought Little Man this silly orange monkey that makes the most obnoxious noise ever. The kid LOVES it!

My dear friend Cari came and visited for the afternoon as well. Her care package has been making me smile ever since. When the princess was diagnosed she bought me the cutest slippers and we joked about how things can't be THAT bad if you have a cute pair of slippers! Well among the many things she brought me were a very cute pair of fuzzy pink slippers! I LOVE THEM! She gave Little Man's Mack (his duck) a new name Mac Roni n' Cheese. He is STILL laughing about that! Thanks Cari! You are such a good friend!

He wanted so badly to go run the halls before bed. He was getting restless in his room and just needed some exercise. But after I put his jammies on him he realized there was a hole in the foot. Saying he was annoyed by it doesn't really explain it right. He kept going on and on about how is toe won't stay in. He was majorly bugged by it. So after him telling the 5 or so nurse that he didn't like the hole I asked for a pair of scissors so I could cut the foot off. We gone one off and he was so happy! We went to do the other foot and he refused! Threw a fit was more like it. He was just fine with the way that it was now. So yes, he walked around with one foot cut off his jammies. VERY RED NECK! The nurse did give him some slippers so he would fall on his run! HE HAD A BALL! Even if it was 10:00 at night!

Remember my post about the mural on the wall and the man playing the piano? Well here is a picture of the mural. I almost cried when I saw it again! I am so grateful that I have a picture of it now. It really is a great reminder to me.

You will never guess who was Little Man's nurse? For anyone that has read the post that I wrote a year ago about the Princess' stay in the hospital would know Dan. He colored with her and played with her ALL AFTERNOON! She loved it! Well Dan was our night nurse so they didn't do much playing, but they still had fun! I had to get the proof. He even remembered us!
He had (and still does have) lots of lows. Less now, we have been changing things like crazy still, but he didn't get much sleep. We were packing things up to go home and look what he did.

He fell asleep between the wall and the chair/bed while loving on his Jessie bear. It was so adorable that I had to get a picture!
So there you have it. The stay!
We are trying to not repeat this again next year!

How it all happened

A few months ago I had a few suspicions that my Little Man was showing signs of being diabetic. Since we saw the Endo every month for his sister I thought I would just talk to him about it. I tested his blood occasionally and would get readings anywhere from 100 to 209.

In May we heard of a study that would test family members of diabetics to see if they have a chance of getting it someday. It is a simple blood test that looks for a certain antibody that shows up as diabetes eventually....or something like that. Honestly I don't really know how it worked but I signed the entire family up for it! Little Dude, Little Man and I went to have the test done in May. Little Man's veins are tiny so they couldn't get enough blood for the test. Dude and I got our results and we are in the clear. I still wanted Little Man to get it though so I set up an appointment for him to go with his daddy in July. Well again they couldn't get enough blood....Daddy is in clear. When he started to show a few more signs of it I really needed to find out more since the next time they were doing the study was in November.

I set up an appointment to go and see the Endo in September. They looked at his glucose numbers that I brought in from the times that I had tested him. They did and A1c and it was 5.6, still normal. But they wanted me to bring him in next month to see how things were going. The end of October I took him in again. Still a few higher glucose number and his A1c went up to 5.9 but still ok. They told me to check him still when he is showing signs and to call if I have any questions.

I called Monday morning because boy oh boy did I have a question....ok really, I already knew what he was going to say. On Sunday night my Little Man had a major melt down over daddy taking away stickers that he was not playing with nicely. He went to a time out after trying to hit is daddy. He sat there and screamed at the top of his lungs. No matter what we did he wouldn't stop. I moved him to his room for him to know that I mean business. He screamed ever louder. I went in and sat on the floor and tried to talk to him. He backed up into his closet and screamed for almost 20 minutes. In that time he would come after me and try to pull my hair or bite me. I happened to look into his eyes and I saw something very frightening. It was all the signs of a high blood sugar and that he was officially not in control. This was far more than just a typical 2 year old melt down. I had the thought to test his blood sugar, but there was no way I was going to do it until he was clam. Finally I just grabbed him and held him in my arms and whispered in his ear. He finally calmed down and I just held him. He sat on my lap for quite some time while I talked to him. A little while later I tested his blood sugar and sure enough...394!

I panicked. I couldn't stop shaking. I kept thinking "he has been caught sneaking candy all afternoon. Maybe that is all that it is." Denial I suppose. I know better. Tears kept coming as I realized what this meant. As soon as I turned on my computer to let my mind escape for a little bit my D-mom friends were chatting and invited my to join. I needed to talk and somehow it worked out that they were right there. All of them, including myself were in tears. We all knew what this meant. What a support it was! I am thankful they were there to help my hubby and I that night! (Yes, he read the entire conversation.)

My hubby held me while I tried to sleep. I couldn't. I just cried. The plan was to call the Dr. in the morning on my first break at work. My hubby and I tested his blood all night until it finally came down to 160 at 4:00 in the morning.

I couldn't work Monday morning. My training class starts at 6:30 so I was tired, but I couldn't stop thinking about it. 8:30 came and I called the Dr. and told the receptionist what was going on, then left a message to have the Dr. call me back. Not even 2 minutes later he called me back and told me that he needed to go to the ER. I stared to sob. I knew I couldn't leave my class. There was no way if I left I was going to loose my job. He told me to go straight from work to his office as soon as I could after work. The rest of my morning was a blur.

I picked him and his sister from the sitter and headed to the Dr. They weighed him. He had lost 1 pound since the end of October. They checked his A1c. It had gone up from 5.9 to 6.2. Going up, but still on the boarder line of ok. The Dr. pretty much knew what was coming, but needed to know how fast. He sent me home to give Little Man as much sugar as possible to put his pancreas to the ultimate test. Then I had orders to take him to Alta View Hospital to do a blood test. He said that if his blood sugar was over 200 his pancreas had failed the test. I did what he said.

Before we were called back to have the blood drawn I pulled out his tester and got a reading of 388.

He had failed the test.

The Dr. called that night and said that it was official he is diabetic. He told us to head up to Primary Children's hospital so they can monitor him while they tried to get the correct insulin doses down. He was admitted on Monday night and sent home Wednesday afternoon.

1 year and 5 days apart from his older sister's diagnosis. Can you believe it? I am still having a hard time believing it myself. But we are good!

More to come....even with pictures next time!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


I really couldn't think of anything better to name this post other than faith. I live off it everyday. That is what keeps me going. I know without a shadow of a doubt that every trial that our little family has will only make us stronger. It always has and I don't believe that will ever change.

Last year any time someone would mention my daughter's name or even the word diabetes (or anything related) I would break down into and uncontrollable crying mess. My emotions were so raw and no matter what I tried I just couldn't hide them. I was scared. I didn't know that I was cut out to be a mother of a diabetic. I felt I was too irresponsible. Everything was overwhelming.

With the diagnosis of my little man yesterday I fully expected for all those feeling to come up again. Yes, I have had my moments of crying and asking why us...again? But something has happened that has made me stronger. You know what happened? Well in the last year I have learned to have more faith. I have learned to try in everything surrounding me to find how Heavenly Father has stepped in and helped me. You know I have seen those tender mercies everywhere. Even in places that I would never expect. Before I get into how my little man is doing let me share a story that happened to me tonight. I never want to forget this so I feel I must share it.

Little Man wanted to go walk the halls before bed tonight. It was late, almost 10:00. He was in his jammies and just having a ball running and skipping all up and down the halls. My hubby and I were following him and just letting him do his thing. We walked through some doors on the 3rd floor of Primary Children's Hospital into a room just off the elevators where there are some couches and computers and even a piano. The room was dark, and the room almost bare. As soon as we opened the doors the sound of music flew through the air. I immediately recognized the song as "I am a Child of God". The spirit of this song went right through me and made my heart swell and my eyes fill with tears. You see this song has a very special meaning to me. The words are powerful! I could hear the words in my mind as the man played.

I am a child of God,
And he has sent me here,
Has given me an earthly home
With parents kind and dear.
Lead me, guide me, walk beside me,
Help me find the way.
Teach me all that I must do
To live with him someday.

I am a child of God,
And so my needs are great;
Help me to understand his words
Before it grows too late.

I am a child of God.
Rich blessings are in store;
If I but learn to do his will
I'll live with him once more.

I realized (again) that my children where sent here to my husband and I and we have a duty. To teach our children who they are what their place is in this world. Their needs are great. All of them not just the two that are diabetic. But they have many things to accomplish and I need to help teach them to know that the hard things that come up in life are placed in our path the help us grow. There are ways over them and once passed there are blessing beyond measure in store for them.

The tears just flowed as we walked down the dark hallway and pass the elevators. Once back into the light on my left there was a mural on the wall of Jesus Christ holding and teaching the children. What a moment to be shown how incredible faith is and how deeply it is important in our lives. A reminder that every step of the way, through every trial that diabetes has in store, I AM NOT ALONE!

I felt so strongly that I needed to thank the man that was playing the music. I left my hubby and son to look at the mural a little longer. I walked back into the dark room where the rather large, older man sat at the piano with his head humbly down. I went up to him and put my arm around his shoulders and while crying I told him thank you for reminding what I needed. Without a missing a beat he looked up and gave me a huge smile. I walked away and didn't see him again.

I know we will be ok. I am at peace.

My little man is doing great! He has been playing and watching movies all day. He hates all the pokes but he surprised us all with wanting to do it himself tonight. He did it too. Poked himself, put in the test strip and tested his blood. I was a little shocked. This will all come with time and when he and sister have to do it all together I know she will be there for strength.

When I finally was able to get to the hospital after having to work all morning he was so happy to see me. Later in the afternoon I was able to lay down with him and take a very long nap! It was lovely! I really don't want to leave him again in the morning, but I know he understands. Plus he is spending time with daddy and loving every minute of it.

He gets to come home tomorrow (the 18th) even though his blood sugar is really low. The dr. thinks that we will be able to do the rest of the fine tuning at home. We caught it so early that his pancreas is still working pretty good. There will be a time that it will stop all together and we will adjust things when that time comes. The dr. also thinks that there will be a time that he will actually only be given insulin when he his high and that is it. It would be nice, but we will have to see.

I will update when I can again, but since I have to wake up in 3 1/2 hours I need to get some rest. Thanks for all the emails, prayers and love. We love you guys!

Monday, November 16, 2009

The day actually came.

One year and 5 days ago I was in shock that I had a diabetic child. Today I am in shock that I now have 2 diabetic children.
My Little Man was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes today.
It has been a very long, emotional, and interesting day.
I promise I will post more about it all tomorrow when I get to go to the hospital to sit with him.
It is KILLING me that I can't be there right now! If I was ever going to quit my job today would be the day! Training isn't fun at 6:30 in the morning, but I am guessing it is going to be a little worse thinking about my little man in the hospital and I can't be there with him. Good thing he has an amazing daddy that is staying by his side!
On a totally side note...I got the most amazing gift in the mail today from a fellow D-Mom, blogging friend! WHAT A PERFECT DAY FOR ME TO GET SUCH AN AWESOME GIFT CELEBRATING WORLD DIABETES DAY! I am going to wear it all day tomorrow....maybe even the next day! THANK YOU NICOLE!
Goodnight world and good night to Halloween and trick or treating FOREVER!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Friday, November 13, 2009

The Type 1 Mom Song

This video is so perfect! I have seen it before but saw it on a fellow D-Mom's blog today and thought that I had to post it too! This is totally my life!!

Don't forget that World Diabetes Day is tomorrow!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

The Infusion Set

I need to start this post by making something very clear. When the princess was diagnosed last year and we didn't have any insurance I have never been more scared in my life. To know that I would have a child that would need constant medical attention that could possibly come out of my pocket, and know that it isn't cheap, was enough stress that every time I thought about it I would break down in a sobbing, boogery mess.

Then in January we were finally approved for Medicaid.

I have since been super grateful. All of her medical supplies have been covered at 100%. Even the Dr. visits are covered. Even her pump was covered at 100%!!! You can't get more lucky than that! So with what I am about to complain about please know that I am still grateful!

Ok so here it is. The other day I called the Diabetes Specialty Center where we get all her supplies from. I hadn't received my monthly order yet and I needed to do a site change. When I called them they informed me that they had been audited by Medicaid and they found out they have been giving out the wrong infusion sets. They had a different kind that they were going to send me. I could hear a little hesitation in the girl's voice so I had to ask if there was a big difference in the sets. She said there was a big difference.

Let me show you!

Here are the infusion sets that we have been using. They are the Animas Inset 30's. There is a plastic piece that the connects to tubing so that when she is in the bath or getting dressed it can disconnect really easily. This picture shows the needle in it (just because I still need to use it) but the needle comes out and a small tubing or the cannula stays in her skin. Kind of like an IV. The entire part is sticky so it sticks to her skin really well.

Now here is what we are having to switch to. They are called the Medtronic MiniMed Polyfin with wings. There is nothing to it. There are big differences here. The needle stays under the skin (the entire plastic piece on the end is covering the needle. The plastic piece comes off. It is just the needle that stays in no cannula). Those little wings on the side are not sticky. So that means there is no way for it to stick to the skin. We will have to use this sticky medical tape to have it stick. The other big change is how it connects to the rest of the tubing. The end if this set just connects directly to the end of the tube.

Now here is why I am so scared to use them. She is 5, how in the world is this going to be comfortable for her with that long of a needle under her skin? With nothing being sticky on the set it's self I can see the tubing getting caught on something and it just pulling right out! To top it off they don't have kid size tubing. The tube is almost the entire length as her entire body. This will get in the way a lot! Then another concern is when I disconnect her to take a bath how are we going to stop water from getting in the tube? They are not kid friendly at all! They don't look comfortable, and honestly pretty old school.
I hate complaining about something that I get for free, but isn't my daughter's comfort supposed to be my first concern?
Guys tell me what you think. I am scared to death to use these things.

Call in the Clean Sweep Crew. I dare you!

I go to bed every night thinking "I am going to get so much done tomorrow!"


I wake up every morning kicking and screaming that I have to get out of my bed. I find it very hard to find my momentum and motivation these days.

I have always had this desire to be organized but I really NEED it right now. This is really hard for me to explain but I just feel that it is so important for my family to change some things right now in order for us to be truly happy.

Currently I am trying to find the best way to organize my laundry, keeping the house clean, and stick to a daily routine. I have tried different help websites or books but I feel like they are really overwhelming.

Tell me friends, what works for you?

Before you answer that let me tell you what I feel is holding me back.

Laundry- There just isn't a good "staging place" for it. I don't have a laundry room. It is in the bathroom behind folding doors. We have thought a ton about moving it to the basement but think this might take too much living space from the basement. Right now all the dirty clothes, towels, or rugs end up in my bedroom to be sorted and ready to be done. I don't always get it done in one day so it just piles up. I AM TIRED OF IT BEING THERE! I really need help with this!

Keeping the house clean- This is hard for me because I give my kids chores to do, but they are just not old enough to do some things. I start by working on the things they can't do, but by the time I get that done, they have messed up what was just cleaned. It is a never ending vicious cycle. I will say this once (for fear of people thinking that I am mean) we are slobs. It clearly is a problem with people not picking up after themselves. Mostly the kids. How do you stop the cycle in kids with out constantly nagging to get things cleaned up?

A daily routine- I clearly see how this would help with the other two items, but I feel like I just have so much to do that when I try to get on a routine I start to stress about the things that I am not getting to yet. What works for everyone to focus on one thing at a time then to be able to get everything done?

Ok I just realized I sound really lame. You would think that after almost 10 years of being married and almost 7 years of being a parent that I would have this down. For some reason I just don't get it yet. HELP!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

The anniversary

One year ago today I watched my daughter's life change forever.
Who knew the road that we were headed down was going to actually be more of a roller coaster?
One year ago today she found out that she had Type 1 Diabetes.
I think I have shed more tears in this last year than my entire existence combined. But on the flip side I think that we have grown so much in so many ways. We live day to day on faith that no matter what happens we will prevail. We always do. We wake up each morning grateful that we have been given another chance to experience all the ups and downs of life. Together.
Being a parent of a diabetic is not easy. After checking her blood sugar 10 or sometimes more a day every number I see translates to me as a glucose number. It's 53 degrees outside right now and to me that means we need a snack. The time says it is 9:08 but to me that means something has gone seriously wrong and we have to get her blood sugar down. My mind is programed to read everything as it would be diabetes related. Feeling like this is something only someone who takes care of a diabetic would understand.
~blood sugar checks all day and throughout the night.
~Carb counting
~weighing food
~insulin doses at every meal
~Being constantly hooked up to an insulin pump
~changing her site every 3 days with a needle that I am shocked that we are brave enough to use.
~always being aware of changes in her personality, mood, or the way she feels to correct for a low or high
~holding on to any treat or snack that she gets until a meal so she can eat it
~knowing what to do when she is sick to not have her end up in the ER again.
~checking ketones
~using needles to inject insulin when I can't use her pump
~Monthly doctor's appointments
~looking for patterns in her blood sugar to know if any changes need to be made.
~and for mom the first thing I do every morning is walk straight to her room to make sure she is still breathing and that nothing went wrong while I slept.
All of this is our life now.
If someone would have showed me a list like this over a year ago and asked if I think I could handle all that I would died. But guess what? We do it every day.
And I don't even mind because it means that I get to hold my princess and laugh with her and sing with her, and play with her, and learn with her, and cry with her. She is so much more than "that diabetic girl" It is a part of her life but it isn't all of who she is. For this time in our lives I am here to take the diabetes part of her life and make it just as easy for her to live out the rest of her life. I think we make a pretty good team.
Here's to the next 95 years of her having diabetes!
Happy D-anniversary sweetie! Your mommy loves your more than I think you will ever know! I am more proud of you each day, even when I don't think that it is possible. You are a strength to so many. I just pray that as you go through your life that you will know and understand just how important and special you are.
Now off to get my hands on some ice cream. I have thought about it and think that the last time we had ice cream diabetes tried to ruin it for us. We are going to battle it again and not let it win!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Yup! I am still here!

Ok I have realized lately that I just need to post something! ANYTHING is better here than nothing!

I started my blog YEARS ago and I don't think that I have ever gone this long without an update. So sorry!

So here is another bullet point update just so that I can say that I posted something.

~I had the H1N1 flu last week. I truly thought that I was going to die! I am still trying to get my energy back and kick this cough, but I am grateful to be alive! I might order me a t-shift that says "I survived the swine flu....barely!" LOL!

~I just got back from the dentist. I hate going, but I had a good talk about my new found love of the movie theatre. While in the middle of putting my crown back on the dentist piped up and said "HEY! Wouldn't it be so cool if we all had Transformer teeth?" This made me laugh so hard!

~And incase I haven't mentioned I have a new found love of going to the movies. Not that I have seen that many movies in the last little while, but I have realized that is my favorite date night activity! I have always LOVED watching movies, but there was something about all the awesome blockbuster movies that came out that made me realize HOW MUCH I LOVE GOING!!!! If anyone is thinking of what to get us for Christmas...MOVIE TICKETS!!!

~Diabetes has been pretty crappy lately. In the last 2 months there have been a whole list of things that have made me scream!! First, the princess was rewarded with a milk shake (she had gone above and beyond what I had asked her to do and needed something special) I gave her insulin for half of it and told her to put the rest in the freezer. I got busy and forgot the follow through to see if she really did put it away. NOPE she ate the entire thing. I didn't find out until before bed her meter read and error that she was too high to read. Which means she was somewhere between 600 and a coma. Luckily we got that worked out. But then the next week she got the flu and couldn't stop throwing up. Her blood sugar wouldn't come up much above 80 the entire day. She ended up in the ER dehydrated and a mild case of Keytoacidosis. Then with a few weeks of her numbers being insane we made a ton of changes with her basal and carb ratio and stuff. This helped, but then she got the croup. She had to have a few doses of steroid to help her to breath. The doctor warned me that without changing everything again her blood sugar would run well above 600 for a few days. We had to stop using her pump for the weekend and go back to shots for everything. And yet again had to change EVERYTHING to keep in the 400 range. It was a long weekend! It was even Halloween! She couldn't have any treats or candy until the Monday after Halloween. Boy was I glad that was over! Right now we are back to "normal" but do you know what tomorrow is? Our 1 year anniversary of this crazy disease changing our lives forever! We are going to have to celebrate somehow.

~I started a training class for work. It was supposed to go from 8 at night to 2 in the morning but I got kicked out because of the flu. I have to start it again on Monday, but this time it will be in the morning. I will be grateful when this is over too!

~So I had a birthday too. A few weeks ago I said goodbye to my 20's forever. This has caused me to evaluate my entire life and where I am going. I am so happy with who I chose to marry, and the kids that I have! However I have things that I want to change. I am excited for the future and can't wait to say "my 30th birthday changed my life for the better!"

~One of those things that I am going to change is my weight! I have been touching the side of the scale that I wanted to never see. I am going to do something about it before it is too late. I have agreed to a little friendly competition with some friends and a few strangers to see who can loose the most weight in 8 weeks. Wish me luck! The monetary prize at the end could be SUPER useful!

~I had a little D-mom's chat the other night on MSN live and I LOVED every minute of it! All these mom's I have met through blogging and they have all been such a huge support for me. It was awesome to chat with everyone in one spot. I am so lucky to have these lady's in my life!

~I got a new shift at work that will start in January. I can't wait to start it! I GET TO GO TO CHURCH AGAIN! It will be awesome to not have to worry about that. And I will have all of Saturday off!

~I am really excited for the holidays this year. Trev and I are on the cusp of something fabulous! I don't know what it is yet, but we can FEEL it! This new year is going to be so good to us! I JUST KNOW IT!

~That would be true if we don't loose our insurance first....more on this later, but we are trying to come up with a plan if we loose our insurance and are too poor get purchase a plan somewhere. It will work out though!

Ok guys that is about all that I can think of. That is a good start though! Plan on seeing me more and feel free to yell if I don't keep that promise again!