Thursday, December 03, 2009

Happy Endo Appointment Day!

With two diabetic kids in our house this might as well be a holiday right? The day where our world of school, work, cleaning and playing stands still while we make the 2.5 mile trip to the Endocrinologist for the afternoon.

When it was just the Princess that was diabetic, going to the Endo caused enough stress for me to last a week. Worried about changes, what the doctor was going to say and then there is the DREADED A1c. OH THE STRESS OF THE A1C! And now there are two! Two A1c's to worry about!

How did I go from worrying about my hair, outfit or makeup to determine my self esteem to that crazy A1c number?

Well I tell you what. I am not going to worry today. Cuz' I know I am doing the best I can. I know November wasn't perfect. I was there when the Princess was so sick because of high glucose numbers with the lovely ketones that followed. I was also there when the Little Man was diagnosed with diabetes. And I even had to install a lock on the pantry door because I saw the effects of what my son's love of Cheerios has on his blood sugar when he sneaks a hand full of them. Our life flipped all around again this month and I just can't be expected to be perfect....right?

So this afternoon when I take the Princess and Little Man to see the Endo I am going to walk in there calmly. I am not going to get after the kids when they start playing with the window coverings, or taking out all the books. I am not going to get grumpy when the A1c's come back and they are higher than expected. I am just going to tell myself with every step out of the office and across the bridge to my car that I AM DOING THE BEST THAT I CAN! And leave it at that!

And maybe, JUST MAYBE we will come home and eat cookies. Just to prove that I am still in control.


The Piquant Storyteller said...

Women already define themselves by too many numbers - clothing sizes, weight vs. height, prices, etc. Isn't it fun having a machine tell you whether or not you are successful several times a day? And the A1C's . . . yeah I hear ya! Can you come with me to my Endo appointment next week? I'll need a dose of your positive attitude!

Becky said...

You go girl!!!

Laura said...

What a great attitude. I love it -
Our appt is on the 14th and I am going to go down there with the same attitude as you!!

We can only do our best!

BTW - I think your Little Man looks a lot like my Nate. Very handsome.
All 3 of your kiddos are super cuties!

Good luck today - - -
Sending you good vibes!!

Nicole said...

Way to are doing a great job. Tis the season for Endo visits, we just brought Cara to the Endo this morning and we are making a lot of changes. It just does not ever stop! Good luck at the docs I will be waiting to hear how everything went!!

Meri said...

You go girl!!! You can only do your one can do better! Can I just tell you how proud I am of you? I can just feel it in my and your family are going to sail through this with love, humor and determination. It won't always be easy...but if anyone can do it, you can.

Honestly, sometimes I wonder if God really has a grasp of how much I can handle. But I'm alive and kickin' so he must know me better than I do. No one thinks they can handle more than one diabetic...but they can. And you will...beautifully!

phonelady said...

Oh boy do I know that feeling . My son being t1 and me also , it is not a good feeling to know that your A1cs are out of whack and trying to get them back is just a horrendous feeling of loathing and self worth . I do know and god bless you and your family it is not a picnic when your kids are t1s.

Shamae said...

Great attitude! You are wonderful!

:) Tracie said...

Make 'em BIG cookies!!!

AjsMommy82 said...

Love, love, love your positive attitude!!! I could stand to learn a lesson or two from you!

Leighann of Multi-Minding Mom said...

2.5 miles to the endo would be a dream!

We travel almost 200 miles each way and it takes about 4 hours (8 hours back and forth). It's quite a production.