When I was pregnant with my son and my daughter I never got sick. I never had morning sickness nor did I ever throw up. I always felt really lucky. Well now, I have been SO nauseous that I can't hardly do anything! It isn't just for a little while. I am so nauseous ALL the time. All day long and it keeps me up at night. I still haven't thrown up, but I almost wish that I would. If there is a chance that it will make me feel better, then I am ok with it! ANYTHING TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!
I feel really bad for my family. I feel that I have been so lazy. I can't make food because it makes it worse. Doing the dishes makes it really bad. I have been so tired that I haven't done much around the house either. It actually bring tears to my eyes to think that there could be a few more weeks or even months of this! I can't handle it and I don't know what is going to make me feel better.
I feel that my family has been suffering because of me. It makes me so sad when it is 2:30 in the afternoon and my kids are begging for lunch. Or that my husband comes home from work to a messy house, grumpy kids, a sick wife and has to think about something to make for dinner. He usually has to get them into bed too because I am sitting in the tub trying to feel at least ok. If I could just not be sick for a little while so that I can do some of things on my long list of demands I would feel better emotionally. I wouldn't beat myself up for feeling selfish. I wouldn't have to rely on my kids and hubby to do everything. I would feel that I can actually do something than feel sorry for myself.
Sorry for the depressing post, this has been really getting to me. Since there is nothing that I can do about it, I have to try to share my feelings and give it a chance that maybe I won't cry about it anymore.
My hat goes off to anyone that is violently ill while being pregnant! You are more of a trooper than I am.