Monday, August 18, 2008

I am not sure that I am ready.

Tomorrow we go and meet little dude's kindergarten teacher. For some reason I am not sure that I am ready for this. Yes, he has gone to preschool for 2 years, but this seems so different to me. Maybe it is the year around school. Maybe it is the fact that he will have homework. Maybe it's because he is going to learn how to read. Or just maybe it's the fact that he is growing up way too fast and needing his mom less and less each year.

I am pretty sure that is it.

I didn't really think that I would be emotional about this, but as they day gets closer to him starting school I find myself getting a little teary. I never did this when he would go to preschool. Infact I think I was too excited to send him off for a few hours.

The more I think about it the more I think of the influences that he will have around him. I fear that I haven't taught him enough to be strong and to be himself. I fear that he will get there and just become different. That he will become too wound up in the worldy affairs in life that he will forget what he stands for.

Then I take a deep breath and realize that I have FAR too long to be worried about this kind of stuff. I hope and pray that kindergarten is still a little sheltered. I am still sad that he is growing too fast though.

6 comments:

Becky said...

I don't think ANY of us are ever really ready, and we all have concerns upon concerns. My oldest started Middle School today and I've been a bundle of worries today too!!! This part of "mommying" is the part that makes us stronger!! :)

Kat said...

Its very scary sending our kids out into this crazy world. You have given him the tools he needs to do well in any setting. He will have a blast, meanwhile lots of chocolate and a box of tissues (for you) on the first day of school always helps.;)

amy said...

Being sad is all part of the experience of kindergarten. You're giving up a little more control over your child. But you'll see how great he really is when he stands on his own!

Becky and Bryce said...

Kindergarten was really hard for me too. I think you finally realize they really are growing up and having a life apart from you. Up until then you were their little life. Soooo sad, but so fun to see them learn and grow.

Kim said...

I have these same fears with my little one...I think it is all part of being a mum. He will do great...you are a good mother...he will remember all that you teach him.

stephanie said...

hey i thought he was starting 1st grade! shows how much i blog!
kindergarten is even more exciting! they do so much fun stuff and it is soo fun to volunteer in the classroom,the whole reading thing was scary for me but they transition pretty fast. i just hope parker is the same as samm!