Friday, April 28, 2006

Snowy days bring wonderful blessings.

It has snowed on almost every imposrtant day in my life. Two years ago this day was no exception. It was a wonderful 80 degrees the day before. I went to lunch with some work friends, and barely did anything at work. That night I dropped my little dude off at my sister's house to spend the night. Why you ask? Because I was going to have a baby! My little princess was born 2 years ago today. It was a shocker that it snowed that day. It was the only day out of the week that it was less than nice outside. I was thrilled though.

Lets jump back about 6 months. I had gone into my family doctor for something that had NOTHING to do with being pregnant. Actually at this point I had no idea I was pregnant. I had just stopped nursing my little dude and was taking birth control, there was no way that I was going to be pregnant. The doctor was doing all sorts of tests that day. He gave me a perscription and sent me on my way. That night at about 9:00 I got a phone call. It was my doctor. The first thing that he tells me is that I needed to sit down. My first though was, oh crap! I have cancer! Well the doctor continues to tell me that after I left his office that day he had a feeling that he needed to do a pregnancy test. He did one and it was positive. Good thing I was sitting down! What a complete shock! I had no idea. Aparantly I was almost 3 months along. Even more of a shock.

That night after putting my little dude to bed my husband and I sat on the couch and cried for about 4 hours. This sounds really extreme, but let me just explain. My little dude was only about 5 months old. You can do the math, but I will help a little. That meant that they were going to be 14 months apart. I was not sure that I was ready for that. It was really hard adjusting to motherhood. My husband was having a hard time as well. With adjusting to fatherhood and motherhood. Not only that he had just been laid off from his job a few moths before. We didn't have very much money and had only one car. I had just started a new job and wasn't sure if the insurance would cover the pregnancy because it was a pre-exsisting condition. So many things where going trough our heads that all we knew at that point was just to cry.

Well, on April 28th 2004 our little princess joined our lives, and changed them forever. She has been a blessing in so many ways. I realized so many things about myself and so many things about life all because of having her. I had post partum depression after having her and that was a struggle, but again another blessing. She has made me a stronger person, she has made our family stronger. I look at her every day and am so proud of all that she is learning, all that so does. I was scared for her to come into this world, all for my own selfish reasons. The Lord had another path for me. I took it, and I have been very blessed and I wouldn't have had it any other way!

Happy Birthday little princess! I love you with all my heart! Keep your spirit strong, and keep your mind healthy and clean! Remember who you are and where you came from. You have changed your mommy's life, I feel that you have the ability to have a stong impact on this world! You are an amazing little girl, please don't ever grow up and try to change that! With much love, Mommy.

6 comments:

My Kids Mom said...

Oh, I so remember this time. I remember the day you told me, I remember the whole pregnancy and I definately remember when you had her and the tough, really rough time you had coming back to work. I'm so glad you followed your heart and quit to be a stay at home mommy. It was the best decision for you at the time and I think that even though it's been tough, you've made a success of it. You are wonderful and your children are truly blessed to have you as their mommy. Take care always - all my love.

manababies said...

Children truly are a blessing. I can imagine that having kids that close together can be overwhelming (mine are 20 months apart, so I can only imagine!), but it's so wonderfuly to see them grow up together.

Katkat said...

Wow! Happy Birthday Princess! I love age two it is full of amazing discoveries

MommyOutOfControl said...

My favorite age is two....my least favorite age is two. Only a mom knows what I mean by that! Enjoy every minute! Happy Birthday Princess!
Jamie

Suzanne said...

That is such a touching story. Happy birthday wishes to your family!!

Anonymous said...

I still remember that phone call at Muzak... and shortly after I told you...oh my gosh and I made the same phone call to you. I hope all is going well. I can believe Brooklyn in 2 now, Trenton soon will be there too.
So...is there a baby on the way yet....I need to watch out for my sake, since our lives are so much the same.

Love always
Des