Friends have always been an important part in my life. I have always enjoyed hanging out and being with people that I know that I can have fun with. Unfortunately when I was younger I didn't have the best group of friends. For some reason they were more important at times then my own family. I am grateful every day that has since changed. That those friends that seem to have steered me in the wrong direction are no longer a part of my life.
Since I have gotten older though, I realize that friends are still really important to me. My hubby and I like to hang out with friends and we miss them when we don't get to see them often enough. I have been blessed with an awesome handful of friends that I feel have really touched my life. I have learned so much from them and at times I really long to be around them.
Lately I have been a little emotional about my awesome friends that I have. Without sounding to "Junior high" I feel that I may have hurt some of my friends feelings recently. I can't really come up with the words to accurately explain how I feel right now, but I am searching for answers on how to know where the line is between too much and too little. I feel I can be a little bit of a needy friend sometimes and when I pull myself back maybe I do it too much. My intentions were never to make things seem awkward or even uncomfortable. I would never want to hurt someones feelings.
I'm not sure now how to make things better. How to let all my friends know how much they mean to me and how equally important they all are in my life. How much I love being able to just sit on a Sunday evening and watch the kids play or going out to dinner or even just talking on the phone. These times have always meant something to me and are totally missed.