Monday, March 17, 2008

The Cycles of Life

Today is always an interesting day for me. It is St. Patrick's day, yes, but that isn't why.

As most of you know, I had a dear friend pass away a few years ago in a car crash. Today is Kirsten's birthday.(I found this link to an interview with her family after her death. What a great person she was. Check out the link and you will see!) While her death has taken the past few years to get over I look at the fact that today would have been her 30th birthday and I have to laugh. Let me explain. Right after we had our little girls (that are 3 months apart) we complained a ton about our bodies, loosing weight, and much much more. In her good spirits she would always tell me that she isn't going to worry too much about it because for her 30th birthday she is going to give herself a makeover. A makeover that included but not limited to lipo, augmentation, and a tummy tuck (if needed). I knew she was joking and it always made me laugh. Well, here it is, her big 3-0 and I am certain that she no longer worries about it. (It was a good idea though.)

I miss her so much, but I am grateful that her husband and daughter are happy. I am grateful that Ella has another mommy that is watching over her and taking care of her as her own. I am grateful that Chad and Janae are expecting a baby in October and that Ella will have a little brother or sister. I am grateful for their friendship and example. Kirsten you were one of my best friends. If I sit and listen I can still hear your laugh, and it reminds me that even though you have left this earth, you have not left me completely. I will see you again, and that is what I a most grateful for!

While reflecting on Kirsten and her death, today, I am reminded of the cycle of life. Death does happen, and it is a sad thing. It is hard to deal with, but we are blessed with so much more. The gift of life is an incredible thing. It brings such a special spirit when a baby is born. In the last few years I have thought of this day and was saddened at the loss of Kirsten. Last year and today some things have happened that will forever shed a new, and much needed light on this day. Last year, one of my best friends had her baby boy on March 17. It was so awesome to me because he is 11 days older than my Little Man. It has been fun to see them grow together in the last year. It has really brought our families together to have our boys born so close together. (Happy Birthday Ian!) Then today some other close friends of mine welcomed their second child (first daughter) into their family. Congratulations Rob and Julie! I am so excited to meet your sweet little girl soon!

This day will no longer bring sadness. There is too much joy in this world to dwell on the sad things. Happy Birthday Kirsten, Ian, and Madeleine. You are all special people that are a part of amazing families!

Oh, and Happy St. Patrick's Day!


EngineeringNerd said...

I'm glad we can help make the day more cheery. You are a good friend. Thanks.

Kim said...

Wow, thank you for sharing these deep feelings of love. Death is a hard thing to deal with, but with it comes so, so, so much joy.